Too Idealistic?

I think, I had been doing too much of idealistic talks for some time. So, am I going to change? No! People like me are stubborn, and don't change without reasons.

People ask me why can't you think and act like us. Why should I think and do the same as the others?

In fact, I don't have anything different from others. It's just that I give importance to those things which others find insignificant and impractical.

Be truthful.

Last week in a conversation with one of my new friends, I tried to speak my heart and soul. Later on I realized that it was an overdose of truth, which exposed the way I think. I thought I will lose him because I had put forward my shortcomings. Thank God! My friend is an intellectual. I don't know what he thinks of me now, but I am satisfied because our friendship is not on hollow promises and exaggerated facts.

This reminds me of a situation that Munna Bhai faced in 'Lagey Raho Munna Bhai'. In the movie, because Munna Bhai started acting as a Professor, he was black-mailed by his own friend.

Still I believe it is easier to start with a truth than starting with lies and later on confessing.

Now, a contrasting thought from a Sanskrit Shloka. It said that never share your dark secrets even with your best and most reliable friend. Because when that friend turns into a foe you are in the deepest of troubles.

I agree with this so I would rather say, 'Never show all your cards, keep some for yourself'.

There is one more side to this. Concealing facts and weaknesses never helps, because then weaknesses grow and your are spoiled. Talking to friends about yourself always helps because then there is a scope for refinement.

Is Honesty Still the Best policy?

While others just talk about Mahatma Gandhi's principles, I practise some of them. Some people criticise Gandhi's principles, some praise them, but nobody accepts them. People say they are just not practical.

I don't know what to do with myself, because I find it impossible to defy my own logics. Doing things smartly is nowhere in my book. Idealism is really painful. Am I stubborn?

These questions are arising because my honesty is troubling me. I can't say that I am the most honest person on the earth, but still I am more honest than others. I practice that consciously.

I always tried to be different from others and do exceptional but good things. When I observed that everyone is cheating every other person and even oneself, then I thought honesty is a good idea to stand out of the crowd.

Apart from all this when somebody starts enjoying honesty it becomes impossible to get rid of it. I believe good habits are as difficult as bad habits, when it comes to changing them. And why change a good habit when you are enjoying that?

It is not that honesty brings trouble but it is difficult to initially start with it. Once you are on with it you realize the benefits. In fact, it makes things easier.

That's where people misunderstand honesty. People say you are speaking truth because you are afraid of taking risks. You don't want to take pains. Why the hell should I bear pains of lies when I am enjoying the bliss of truth?

CAT percentile

Now I know my CAT percentile. It's 79.39.

Strange! I have been getting scores, percentages and percentiles, involving figures close to 9 in units digit. May be it shows that I didn't give my best. I could have done better. In fact, 'Manish can do better' had always been the remarks that I had been getting in school results.

I am happy with my performance. I could not have done better in these conditions.

Now, I am looking to go for MBA. I won't mind a low ranked institute. I don't think any good institute is going to give me a chance. Everyone says this is all pessimism. But I say it is just a precise assessment. I don't want to waste my Dad's hard earned money in applying to high ranked institutes. There is no point in doing that when you know, you will not make it. But people say 'You never know'.

I don't want to live by chance. I already had enough of it. 'No thanks' is what I would like to say to my luck.

Group Discussion

In coaching I am making new friends. I have a problem that in Group Discussions I am not able to get into the discussion early. I keep on giving chance to others. This can ultimately lead to loss of my seat in some good college. Our Mundan sir wants me to speak more.

A Day

Let's talk about this day very quickly. Bad morning, a class good enough, a good acquaintance, so many good looking girls (they really make my day) and kaju ki barfi.

Die Hard 2: Die Harder

Yesterday I watched 'Die Hard 2: Die Harder'. It was totally absorbing experience. I was thrilled and got swept off my feet. It was just television and I felt I was right there inside it. I mean if this movie can create such an effect in television than I can die hard to watch this movie in theatre. Bruce Willis was fabulous and even though it was an old movie, the effects were far better than what we see in current Bollywood movies. When I thought over the work that the team behind the movie must have done, my mind got boggled up. Hats off to them. But the most important thing was that it was inspiring. The determination, sincerity towards duty, respect towards innocent lives and usage of mental and physical skills of Bruce were the things I envy. And yes his love and faithfulness towards his wife cannot be ignored either. You must watch it in good quality medium.